HIS Timing.. not mine!

I went in for my 16 1/2 week check up today. Before I went, I was telling Jonathan (and Shellie) that my next appointment would be about 4 weeks from now (which would be around September 10th) and that's when I would probably have the ultrasound to find out if our baby will be a boy or a girl! I mentioned to Shellie this morning that I was going to try to see if I could schedule it a few days earlier, September 4th, for my birthday (just to make it a little more special). I told her it probably wouldn't happen but didn't hurt to ask. When I got to my appointment, I realized I got to see one of my favorite doctor's, Dr. Richardson. I saw her a lot with Tucker but had not seen her yet with this sweet baby. She came in and was just the nicest thing ever... as usual. We talked about how I was feeling, she checked the baby's heartbeat (which sounded great today!) and just chit chatted for a few minutes (it was a quick appointment). When we were done, she said, "usually your next appointment would be 4 weeks from now and that's when you'll find out the gender.. but you can really find out at 18 weeks which would be about 2 weeks from now. Would you want to come in and go ahead and have your ultrasound and then come in again in 4 weeks for your regular appt?" I quickly replied, "YESSSSS! OF COURSE! :) She said "I thought you were gonna say that!" :) So ... she wrote on my chart to schedule me for 2 weeks from now. I went up to the front desk and the girl doing the schedule said, "OK - two weeks from now you will come in for your ultrasound to find out what you're having - two weeks is August 27th, will that work for you?" My heart sank and wanted to burst all at the same time. You see, August 27th was our due date with the baby that we lost in December. I looked down and replied, "of course, that would be wonderful." It had not even hit me that two weeks from now was August 27th. We obviously knew it was coming up and have had conversations about how that would be a tough day but honestly tried not to think/talk about it too much. When she said that date, I just couldn't help but immediately think how FAITHFUL God is. He had a plan from the beginning. He KNEW that day would be hard for us, but oh how joyous it will be to find out if we are having a baby boy or baby girl! I just walked out in disbelief. What I wanted for myself (for me to find out on my birthday), God had an even BETTER plan.. HE ALWAYS does! Thank you, Jesus, for your constant reminder of your love. I just can't even wrap my head around it. Stay tuned August 27th............................ :) :) :)